Actually, the last one for the next 7 days. I'm going to do what I can to enjoy it. I need to take today for myself, go to the lake, sit on the shore and let the sound of the waves soothe me, calm me.
I've been feeling very unsettled the last couple of days. Weighing the pros and cons of some decisions I'm trying to make. Not coming up with the right answers. Let me rephrase that-viable answers for myself at this time. I've had to choose the route that is most sensible for me at this time, and I'm just not ready to accept that, so I keep rationalizing, and coming up with more frustration, but still the "safe" answer-for now. And I know it.
Confused yet? This is all tied to the entry I made in ~Walking In My Shoes, Honestly~ the other night. I'm frustrated with money-the lack thereof, the limited choices I have at this time, and my inability to change anything-right now!
When you build a house, you have to start with the foundation, make it sturdy, water-proof, straight and strong. Then move on to the walls and roof. When you create a quilt, you have to make sure all the pieces fit together, or you'll have gaps, you have to sew each individual piece into place to make the whole. There are no shortcuts. I've got to build up that foundation, make sure all the pieces fit before I do anything else.
For me-at this time-the decision has to be to stay in this situation, do what I can to get things done right before I leave. Financially, I can't do much of anything until I take care of the car-no car, no job, at least not the one I have now. And there are no other jobs out there, right now. Michigan has the highest unemployment rate in the nation. The car tune-up and repairs are only a couple hundred dollars, and a necessity.
I don't have the money for a security deposit for an apartment. That's an important factor. The studio apartment I was considering has been rented(the day I wrote the entry, in fact). The motel apartments are now full. It really isn't a bad place, the woman that owns it is careful of who she rents to. Anyway with those options out of the picture, I'm left with looking for an apartment or just staying here. So, for now, I'm staying here. I'll keep my eyes open for places to rent, do what I need to do, and try to make the situation here more equal. How? Well, that's something else I have to work on.
I WILL look at this in a positive way, work all these details out and be thankful I have what I do. So....
~Thanks For Stopping By~
No sign of the cat or her kittens yet-I hope you guys are right.